Yeah
I wake up every morning
With my head up in a daze
I'm not sure if I should say this,
Fuck, I'll say it anyway
Everybody tries to tell me
That I'm going through a phase
I don't know if it's a phase,
I just wanna feel okay, yeah
I battle with depression,
But the question still remains
Is this post-traumatic stressing
Or am I suppressing rage?
And my doctor tries to tell me
That I'm going through a phase
Yeah, it's not a fucking phase,
I just wanna feel okay,
Okay?
Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit every day
And it's probably
'cause my demons simultaneously rage
It obliterates me,
Disintegrates me,
Annihilates me
'Cause I'm about to break down,
I'm searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down,
Falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular monster
I think I'm going nowhere
Like a rat trapped in a maze
Every wall that I knock down
Is just a wall that I replace
I'm in a race against myself,
I try to keep a steady pace
How the fuck will I escape
If I never close my case?
Oh my God, I keep on stressing,
Every second that I waste
Is another second sooner
To a blessing I won't take
But my therapist will tell me
That I'm going through a stage
Yeah, it's not a fucking stage,
I just wanna feel okay,
Okay
Motherfucker, now you got my attention
I need to change a couple things
'cause something is missing
And what if I were to lie?
Tell you everything is fine
Every single fucking day
I get closer to the grave,
I am terrified
I fell asleep at the wheel again
Crashed my car just to feel again
It obliterates me,
Disintegrates me,
Annihilates me
'Cause I'm about to break down,
I'm searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater,
I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down,
Falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular fucking monster
Aaaaaah
Yeah,
Here we go again, motherfucker, oh
We're sick and tired of wondering
Praying to a god that you don't believe
We're searching for the truth
In the lost and found
So the question I ask is
Oh, where the fuck is your god now?
'Cause I'm about to break down,
I'm searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down,
Falling into love now
With falling apart
I'm not a popular, popular monster
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster